2004-12-02 @ 3:30 p.m. |
Went to my drawing class last night and we had a new model who was very good. Not one of those stick figures with bland college co-ed features, but a unique face (very painterly, if I painted) and a body with curves but not fat. I�m a little under the weather today, so I decided to Spell your first name backwards: yttikyttiw (it looks like the name for a Japanese mushroom) The story behind your user name, awittykitty: Isn�t it obvious? No? I am crushed, you hear. Totally crushed. DESCRIBE YOUR Wallet: Dark blue leather, jammed with credit cards. Ha, ha! Not really. Mastercard/Visa/AmericaExpress/Discovery have me on their �do not give her a credit card� list. Hairbrush: Horse hair with a wood handle. Good for Toothbrush: Green Oral B with soft bristles Pillow cover: One with Snoopy on it. He is on a doghouse with Woodstock sleeping on his stomach. It says, �Security is having your friends sleep over.� Its from my childhood. Blanket: dark blue floral print. Coffee cup: I don�t drink coffee but I do have a cool Broadway cup �G� sent me from NYC with logos from all the Broadway musicals Sunglasses: Sunglasses? Why would I need sunglasses? The sun is only out 14 days a year where I live. Underwear: Underwear? Shoes: Reeboks or my hippie sandals. Favorite top: Black tank top Cologne/Perfume: I don�t like perfume, but I do spritz on citrus body splash. I also have some patchouli lotion, since I�m a hippie and it�s required that I occasionally smell like patchouli. CD in stereo right now: �Chicago� (the musical) Piercings: 2, one in each ear What you are wearing now: Black sweater. Ummm. That�s all. :-) Hair: tousled and impossibly sexy. Makeup: just a little concealer to cover up my dark circles, mascara and a little blush so I don�t look like Vampira. In my mouth: Tongue in cheek In my head: why did I fuck things up with Married Guy, how am I going to afford to buy Christmas presents, ow, my body hurts, do I have time for an afternoon quickie before I go to my support group, why can�t I be on Broadway? Wishing: for world peace, but in the meantime, a really awesome massage by a man with warm, soft hands, who will massage me all the right places in all the right ways After this: See �In my head� (i.e., quickie) Talking to: my computer because it gives me unconditional love. Eating: I just finished a bowl of raisin bran with non-fat milk Fetishes: Only �A� knows about them, but my hairbrush might give you an inkling If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason: My former step-mommy, the filipino mail order whore. She took advantage of my father when he was ill with Alzheimer�s, destroyed my relationship with him (although I helped a smidge, right �A�?) and then got all his money. She didn�t even tell me when he died. I had to hear it second hand from my cousin. So, whorebitch, where ever you are in the Philippines, there�s a landmine with your name on it. Knock yourself out. Person you wish you could see right now: My dad, of course. Is next to you: My sketchpad and Guardcat. Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month: New years: I can barely get through each day without potentially fucking something up, so we won�t worry about new year�s, OK? The last thing you ate: Aren�t you paying attention? a bowl of raisin bran with non-fat milk Something that you are deathly afraid of: Got an hour? DO YOU... Do you like candles: They�re nice. Do you like hot wax: Whoops....fetish alert...I used to do �that�, but not anymore. Do you like incense: Sure, otherwise they�d revoke my hippie license. Do you believe in soul mates: yes. Do you believe in Heaven: Nope, not unless you�re talking about being hand fed dark chocolate by a darkly handsome random stranger willing to give me a massage Do you believe in forgiveness: Hard question. I tend to hold onto old hurts for a long time, but if the person is legitimately sorry, I�ll consider it. Do you believe in God: No. Sorry. Catholic school beat that out of me. Who is your worst enemy: You�re reading me. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be: Even though I am a cat person, dogs do have a certain appeal. Sort of the �I�m dumb and I�ll follow you anywhere� thing. I used to take care of Married Guy�s dog and enjoyed it. My....that sounds naughty, huh? I didn�t exactly �take care� of his dog. I wanted to though. God, I really wanted to. Ever been to Belgium: I don�t think my car would make it. Can you eat with chopsticks: No, but I might be able to use them as lethal weapons if necessary What's your favorite coin: the ones pouring out a slot machine. What are some of your favorite pig out foods: Non-pereil chocolate. I�m addicted. Hopelessly. I�m like a junkie. I also like Chinese food. What's something that you wish people would understand: Not to label people. Like if you�re poor and you have to pull out your food stamp card at the checkout counter, that isn�t your cue to scoff or look down at me. I�m just as good as you. Probably better. And if the truth were to be known, you�re probably only 3 paychecks away from poverty too, so get over yourself. What's something you wish you could understand better: How to communicate your feelings to someone, especially anger. I tend to keep everything in, and get an ulcer. I�ve had two situations where I have told people how I felt and it ended the relationships, so I am very gun shy about saying anything. Of course if you were to consult �A� on this question, he would probably tell you, it was because I waited way too long to tell these people I was upset with them, so the only solution was a thermal nuclear emotional meltdown. Not sure when I will learn anything different though. I�m an emotional clam. Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time: My Dad. What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow: To be happier and not be so angry, because anger sucks. Older Entries |
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